Some times it's very dangerous that I start to think something deeply. My boyfriend suggested me that I watch some video, which he had found. So, I watched it and... now I think too much.
This video was telling about skills and creativity. It wasn't only about skills to draw, it was about any kind skills. It make me think, that if I had tried every day of those for about five years, would I have learn? Would I be ten times better, than I'm now?
In the video this guy tells that if you want to learn, you should do something every day or at least every week and submit it somewhere to be seen. This is one thing I have been thinking all night and all day. What if I try it? What if I try do something every day and submit it here?  Of course there is days I just don't have time or I'm too lazy to do anything. But if I try almost every day sent something, small or big, would it help?

If some body want to know, which video I'm talking about, you can find it from here: [link]

Okey, lets talk about something else things that are in my mind. They are some ways connected in that, cause that video is one that got me thinking them too.
I believe, that some ones have some reason to be born. Some one become president, some one become actor, some one is worlds greatest artist and some one is that crazy one in town. Not every one become famous and known, but every one has it's own place in this world. And I have been thinking, which is my part? I know I won't become famous or best in something. I don't have any great talent or skills. I'm just normal young woman from Finland. I live middle in no-where. I don't have much money, I don't have much beauty and I don't have courage to face the world. Even now I'm uncomfortable, because I'm not good in english.
I have some reason to be here. It maybe be that some day I give birth for some big person, who will change the world, or maybe not. Who knows?

I'm an impatient person. I want every thing now. Not tomorrow, now. In same time I know that I don't get anything right now, so I just have to wait. I want to learn things fast, but in same time I'm too lazy. I want to get married, settle down and get family, but I know I have to study first. Of course I want too to see the world and life my wildest before I have to settle down. I just need to tell my self, I don't need to hurry, cause my years (hopefully) don't end just now. I have time to enjoy, I have time to do thing carefully. I don't have to do decisions this very second.

Maybe I have talked enough for this night.

And yeah, my english hasn't gotten any better from last time. But I at least try (with Google translators help).